the aftermath

so i just thought id recap what ive been thinking about the aftermath of your death, how we go on, with a conversation between me and bev:

ah i see... this life of ours not always easy. its weird you think everyone else is having a good time or having it easy, but in fact, its just as hard at times... anyways, enuf Introspective!

Bevan: well said -

my mom always said to me:

Bevan

Life is hard

and I never really understood her

I would always aim for the stars and think everything would be cool and there would be no problems

that the family life I knew growing uo would never change

and ja,

it does

and then we just deal with it

and in a weird way we become better people

I think

we have more dpeth and we feel more

and understand pain

and appreciate happiness

so that is beautiful

but painful

getting there that is

Courtenay: wow well said... yeah if you aimed high then nobody could get you... with a perfect little family behind you you would always be the best if you just put time in. but yep you're right, the more hardship the more we understand these things, the better we can cope and perhaps it brings us happiness... nobody said it was easy to the top. or building a perfect life. but we gain appreciation from pain too.